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halkal88
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Name: Haleigh
Country: United States
State: Minnesota
Gender: Female
Interests: God, Handicapped people, children, missions, Alex(my little bro)...I don't know, ask me later.
Expertise: If I told you...I'd have to kill you
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  halkal88
Member Since:
5/9/2005
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| So, I just got back from California. It was a really good time. California is amazing, I really like it. I went there to see a friend in a youth conference, and some really interesting things happened. I can't seem to write them out, becasue I can't put into words what I'm thinking. I was with girls who spend 3 hrs getting ready, which isn't my thing. Don't get me wrong, sometimes its nice, but I don't think its a necessity for everyday. I drove in LA, watched the sunset on the santa monica pier, walked in the ocean...It was a rather good time. Its funny the things that make you realize who your real friends are...its not what i expected. Overall it was fun, frustrating, and thought provoking. All good things :)
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| Am I faithful, am I strong, am I good enough to belong
in your reverie a perfect girl
Your vision of romance is cruel and all along I played the fool
all your expectations bury me
Don't worry you will find the answer if you let it go
give yourself some time to falter
But don't forgo knowing that you're loved no matter what
and everything will come around in time
I own my insecurities I try to own my destiny
That I can make or break it if I choose
But you take my words and twist them 'round
'til I'm the one who brings you down
Make me feel like I'm the one to blame for all of this...
You need everybody with you on your side
Know that I am here for you but I hope in time
You'll find yourself alright alone
You'll find yourself with open arms
You'll find yourself you'll find yourself in time
The riot in my heart decideds to keep me open and alive
I have to take myself away from you
'cause I can't compete I can't deny there's nothing that I didn't try
how did I go wrong in loving you
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| So...I almost forgot how to use xanga! Its almost been a year since I
have written anything. I think I stopped because A) I don't have time
and B) It starts to become something that I vent to and then people
read it and its just not good. But I guess whatever. So, for the
people who i actually keep in touch with through here...britni...you
better talk to me. I miss you. Anyways. I think i might
like exploding to xanga, it keeps track of it for me unlike other
things that I lose. Anyways, can't unload now...gotta go to sleep.
Goodnight.
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| Take my heart, I Lay it down
At the feet of you whose crowned
Take my life, I’m letting go
I lift it upto You who’s throned
And I will worship You, Lord
Only You, Lord
And I will bow down before You
Only You Lord
Take my fret, take my fear
All I have, I’m leaving here
Be all my hopes, be all my dreams
Be all my delights, be my everything
And It’s just you and me here now
Only you and me here now
You should see the view
When it’s only You
And its just you and me here now
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| So...I know that God knows what he's doing, but sometimes I don't
believe it. This has been one of the most stressful weeks.
Not even going into the problems with boys that are always
occurring...I got a speeding ticket yesterday. So, I have the
ticket to pay and the insurance that is going up...which I don't have
to pay, my parents do, but thats not much better becasue things are
going wrong at home. My brother doesn't have a job and so hes
defaulting on his loans and my parents have to pay for them and they
are trying to fix the cabin and our air conditioner broke and we have
to have air otherwise alex gets sick and I jsut found out that my dad
might quit his job today. Holy crap, I guess it seems a lot
smaller when you write it down, but in my head I'm ready to
explode. I feel sick. Who unloads to xanga? Apparently i
do...but where are the real friends? Aren't things supposed to work
like...when you are struggling your friends are there and when they are
you are there too. Maybe I expect to much but I think that
especially with faith issues your "christian" friends should be able to
pray for you ar talk with you, but it seems like lately my friends are
afraid of talking about anything that relates to faith. I am as
well. Maybe we are in the same boat and I should start thinking
of their needs and not my own. Sometimes doesn't it feel like
thats all you do? Think about other people? Man, this has gone on
long enough. I leave for chicago tomorrow. Maybe I'll stay
there.
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